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| I've decided to call this my personal "blog" since about uh..4 people
visit this thing? Well just one, maybe two things to address...
1. 3/10/06 was one of the most memorable days of my life...the night in particular(1st tempt)
2. 3/4/06 was the most startling and just..wow night of my life...the whole day(HOSA)
3.March 14th, 2006, the greatest night of my life thus far until I get married [this is the day]
I've discovered throughout the last month, along with everything
else...that I love Jawairia Saleem Pasha Khan with all my heart, and
that this isn't a mere infatuation or teenage exaggeration..it's almost
surreal to make such an accusation..but I'll say this...when I'm with
u...I'm in heaven...and u are just so dam amazing and beautiful
in everyway...u make my day and shit u just put a smile on my face, and
I love you more than there are microorganisms in the world..believe
me..there's nothing more in the world but my love for you. It's such an
abstract concept that I'd be a fool to try to express it on paper, but
I do it anyways just because I care...from the poems to the simple "I
love you" " I love you too" it's always an attempt to capture the gist
of it all, but we feel our love, and only we can...which is special. I
just felt like writing this...and felt the world should know that I
will show u off to the world baby, and that u ARE my world against the
rest of society that puts me or u down, and if I was on the highest
cliff hell no I wouldn't let u drop, I will never EVER let u down. I
value u more than I value my own life.
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| Julie and I are going
out..again, but it's always different the second time around..and she's
changed, I've changed too and well..yea it's quite interesting..meh I
won't go into detail but yea..she's my light at the end of the tunnel
as some would say..or the only dam person in the whole gloomy fucked up
world who can make me smile..whether physically or deep down
inside..and there are things I've been able to tell her that I can
never tell anyone else...shit I tell her everything..but of course
there's always mystery ;) Well anyways since so many people still don't
know about what happened V-Day..geez..I got her a pink bear..hell as
fuck to find..chocolate um..white rose and a cheap bracelet..hel I
gotta be honest..Target only pays every 2 weeks..dam mother
fuckers..um..ok yea and I got this wallet that I carry around
everywhere now uhhhh it's a wallet lol I have money soo yea and it's
obviously meaningful ok shit this is getting too weird..I'm still
wondering what else she got me..grrrr gotta wait..ah well. I can deal
with it..so she wanted me to update..and her being the LOSER that she
is..she knows my password AND log-in..and doesn't make her own dam
xanga entry..tsk tsk..ah well Me thumse pyaar kartha hoo Java chip (Yes
JC = Julie duh )
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| Shit.it's almost February and um..no one reads this cept Summer I
think? Prove me wrong u sleepy asses..yea xanga is pretty much
dead..mhm..well I'm listening to "Wherever you will go" by The
Calling..meh I went over to Tom's house one day and listened to it..and
it reminded me when I DID like this song..never was that
popular..oh..right..onto bigger issues..well the hardest thing to do
right now is READ YOU, because I want to know when you're ready without
asking you..I don't want to ask..yea..and of course for somehow society
to accept it and to not be judgemental..but we all know that's
inevitable..whatever the hell anyone does, someone has to bitch about
it, that's how life is..so honestly..it doesn't matter what the fuck
society thinks..it's when the time is right, when you're ready, when
you know..and I don't know why..well..it makes sense..as to why I KNOW
I'm ready..I think you're pretty sure..but it's only been a week..then
again alot has happened in one week..and yes I'll celebrate your next
100 lol..hel even a B deserves a party..geez..and a possible sunset --
sunrise time with u when what? Hell freezes over? or when you can take
up a good lie ;) mhm..what else..oh..I wish people could understand how
I feel..cause finally..some people have gotten some sense knocked into
them..::ahem:: Krystal-- "yea, I never knew how serious it really was
until now" uhhhh yea ::blank face:: lol dam..I am officially retarded
at myspace, they should make a blog for that but then again..that
contradicts the whole thing because retarded myspacers aren't spose to
know how to make a blog..mhm..shit, and that dream..uhh yea I dunno
what happend..and it sucks when u drive all that way to see her
beautiful face..and u have to watch out for just about every dam desi
in the neighborhood to see if they're gonna shoot u down in some random
ass field that happens to be 20 feet from her house and 10 feet from ur
car..and for the hell of all things..I honestly think "tehnically"
needs to stop lol because it's obviously not getting to that girl
at work..and we all know it would be better for both of us..but we're
all patient in this shit..mhm..interesting day coming up yeh? lol
Valentine's Day..the most..controversial? day of the year lol it's
odd..how people buy their significant other gifts to show they
care..it's like..what? I need to buy u a stuff teady bear and candy and
roses and take u out to show u that I Love someone? bullshit..Love to
me is none of that..Love is that fucken gut in ur soul that tells u
what u want..who u want..how much ull do to get to them..how much they
mean to u..what ud do to get to them when u cant..how much u think and
care about them and fucken thrust ur heart out for them..yup..pretty
much it..but hel..girls still like gifts..it never hurt anyone to do
that..mhm..yea it'll take some thinking lol well I just randomly
decided to post this entry..
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| King Kong for the 2nd time was amazing..and Tristan & Isolde was a life changing experience..lol no one knows what love is dorkess.. | | |
| Woooooo Happy New Year? mehh ok here's that shit
I confess that in 2005, I...
(x ) stayed single the whole year.
( ) got your first kiss [2004]
(X) kissed someone new[meh not the same]
( ) made-out for the first time[2004]
() made-out in/on a car[not quite]
( ) kissed in the snow[won't snow here again]
() kissed in the rain[not yet]
(x) fell in love[nothing new..shit]
(x) fell in love with a fool[we're both fools]
(X) had your heart broken[yup, nothin new]
(X) broke someone else's heart[apparently the same shit happened]
(X) had a stalker[creepy]
( ) had a good relationship with someone[single the whole dam year]
( ) questioned your sexual orientation[Donte kissed me at 12:59 in 2005..fuck]
() came out of the closet
( ) got pregnant
( ) gotten someone else pregnant[Part of the V Squad bitch]
( ) had an abortion[I'm a guy]
( ) got married[Single and not settling down]
( ) had a divorce
( ) had a gay marriage
( ) kissed someone of the same sex[I'm not gay or fucked with orientations]
(x) dated someone you'll never forget[fuck yea, still haven't, never will, one promise that lasts forever]
(x) done something you've regretted[shit loads]
(x) lost your true love[not quite]
(x) lost faith in love[there's always faith]
( ) kissed under miseltoe
WORK/SCHOOL
(x ) got a promotion[$7.50 now hah]
(x ) got a pay raise[yup..]
( ) changed jobs
( ) lost your job
( ) quit your job
( ) dated a co-worker
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
( ) got fired from your job
( ) got straight A's
(x) met one teacher you really like
(x) met one teacher you really hated
(x) found the subject you love
( ) failed a class
(x) cut class [yupp]
(x) skipped school[all the time]
(x) got into a fight with a classmate[verbal]
(x) did something you were proud of
(x) discovered a new talent
(x) gave the teachers a reason to teach
(x) proved yourself an idiot
(x) embaressed yourself in front of the class
(x) fell in love with a teacher[Martinez..haha]
( ) got a part in the school play
() made a varsity team
(x) were involved in something you'll never forget[Yea..crazy times]
( ) got sent to the office
OTHER
(x ) painted a picture
(x) wrote a poem[shit loads]
(x ) ran a mile
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
(x) double-dipped
(x ) skinny-dipped
(x) went to a sleepover
( ) went to camp
(x) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
(x) flirted shamelessly
( ) visited a foreign country
( ) visted a foreign state
( ) cooked a disasterous meal
(xxxxxxxxxx) lost something important to you
(x) got a gift you adore
(x) realized something new about yourself
( ) went on a diet (involuntary)
( ) tried to gain weight
() dyed your hair
(xxxxxxx) came close to losing your life
(x ) someone close to you died
(xxxxxxxxxxxx) went to a party
( ) drank alcohol
( ) drank alcohol underage
(x ) did (a) drug(s)
() got drunk
(x) read a great book
(x) saw a great movie
( ) saw a movie so scary that it made you cry
( ) saw your favorite band/artist live
( ) saw someone famous in person
(x) did something you want to tell everyone
( ) Enjoyed this year all over
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